June 11th

Jeff and Eli left for Spokane yesterday morning and will be back tomorrow. They took my brother to an organic farm that he will be working at for the next few weeks then he's taking a bus to Portland to go camping. Matt decided to take a bus back to NH after all that was over. I told him that he will surly starve to death or catch a bus disease. He's doing it anyway. He said today in a text that he was "meant for it".
It will take him 3.5 days...

Having the two oldest boys out of town has been so great. Silas has gotten to play with cars all day long for 2 days straight, uninterrupted. He's so much more verbal when Eli is gone. It's been nice to have conversations with him. Tonight he refused to eat his fish, even though I took him to Wendy's and promised him a Frosty if he ate his dinner when we got to Abby's for Community group. No success...
Moses played hard...and took over the wooden toys that have snaps on them. He chewed them and banged them on things and crawled around with his peg leg and held his snap block tightly. It was red and long and had a snap on the end of it. He was so happy.
Community group was the place to be tonight. It happened with lots of conversation and love.

THEN...when i got home I swept the attic and vacuumed all the rafters and floors. It's so clean and ready. I also moved a massive amount of our stuff from one place to another. I found a box that had a bunch of notes that I had written Jeff from when we were dating and during our first few years of marriage. 2 things....1. It was kinda sad to find them because I realized that I haven't written him notes like that in a long time and 2. I was glad to be remided of all the things that I absolutely love about him. As if I had forgotten. After reading them I said to myself "Wow I really do love this guy...and he's really great." I often have coversations in my head that are strange. This one was one of them.
I think tomorrow I will write him a letter.