oh well...

  



And a little piece of me was brought some life...and some of the old we put to rest and decided it would be best to bury.  And when I say bury I mean that in the best-est way possible.  Like when when you where 14 and you take that photo of that boy you never quite got over and finally burned it and said..."I'm so over it".  Newness...and I have hope that I had lost.  It was in a box called "lost and found", probably in a gym in a school back east.  Somewhere along the road I had lost it and someone stuck it in the box.  It wasn't their fault...just sometimes stuff is lost.  And though right now I feel a few thousand mile from home, I'm thinking it's gonna get better and I'm not runnin so I got no where to go...do you?  It can rain for awhile and rain is good.



and I'm really into these boots.


You think somedays it would be easier if it was just all over and He called it good.  But not today and maybe not tomorrow.  And we've been fooled about what it means to feel.  Hopelessness can be so real that it's all you breath.  Tomorrow seems like an eternity and every moment can be crushing.  And I'm so tempted to stay there...in my puddle.













We've gotta stay close to those who love us and want to walk with us.  We've got to be willing to learn what it means to love and be loved.  And often that means we have to feel the pain...let it settle...look around and walk a bit.  Jeff leaned over to me and said, "you know I'm in it for the long run...right...no matter what!"  But I was in that hard place and felt like I was just falling through the cracks.  So in my quite place I just had to rest and be ok with the rain.  I kept thinking are they sure they don't call this "Weekend to forget" and why does everything have to be so complicated...I meant come on.  Can't I just have Carmel Pumpkin latte kinda day??








And I thought I said that I was going to be at the beach anyways...well that's Monday.  And I really had no intention to post about my rain and puddles, nor did I intend to post my favorite boots.  But oh well...it fine.  So here's to real life and real days!