I'll put that in my pocket...

Being a pastor's wife has it's icee cold days and also has it's warm summer the surf is great days.  And when it's cold...it's cold.  I bundle up and hold on and wait.  6 years of going to church in a separate car can have it's wear on a girl.  I go strong for a long time and then just like when you realize the lady in the check out stand charged you for 3 shampoo's instead of 1, I get that feeling of being gypped.
I crave normal...
I want to leave the house with "us" and come home and forget the world. 
But then, just when I'm in the car and I'm looking over at that empty seat, and the receipt shows the number 3 instead of 1...I get to go on a trip and it's paid for because Jeff was needed for a wedding, and all we had to do was show up. 
So I said good-by to my monkeys, left them with those who would love them well and we drove...









And I did stuff like talk on the phone and take pictures, at the same time.




And though we love our babies, we needed this.  I needed this.  Jeff and I are in a place where we are starting to realize that when the other fails us it's ok...letting each other fail let's the truth of who we are come out in a safe place.   If it's not safe to fail...then it's not safe to be you...to be broken...and you hide and cover and places in your heart may grow cold and lost.  It's a steep climb with dead ends, but we're trying to live like we have the rest of our lives to figure this all out.  I'm not going anywhere...are you? Nope...okay then...let's touch fingers and try again tomorrow. 

And we are really different.
I'm the one on the left...
We do so much better if I let him be him and he lets me be me.  After all that's what made us fall in love in the first place.


 Ever get that feeling like your being followed...


And the mountains where freaking awesome.







And we didn't know what to do with ourselves.  Every light had to be turned on. Shades open...
We quickly made it ours and headed to pool...








Thank you...I will.
"Excuse me, do you have dolphins...?"


And you know what make's these the most beautiful towels I have ever seen in my whole life...I didn't have to fold them AND I could use all of them and no one could get mad at me.






This water-slide was just what I needed to let go of it all.   The first time I went I didn't wait for the guard to give me the "aOk".  I ran up the stairs and just flung myself down the tube.  Jeff told me next time I needed to wait..."wait for what?" I asked...
Stuff like that happens when you think water-slides are just for you, when you make them yours. I went down like 20 times...I don't know what the other people where doing in the pool...get out of the freaken pool and fling yourself down a water-slide...You'll feel so much better about your world.




I'm gonna call this a dolphin... 

which officially makes this the most epic water-slide park I've ever been to.


Oh yes...the rehearsal.  I kept joking with Jay, "there's a wedding...REALLY...who?" "I'm sorry I have an appointment with the dolphins at the water-slide park..."




Suncadia Rocks it so well...they had make your own cranberry/popcorn garland going on in the main lobby area.  So we settled in and felt like one of the posh.  The head chef led the group and we just fell right in with those around us like old friends.  Everyone's so happy in cranberry popcorn world.






"Hey little girl...you just play and soak it all in.  Remember how loved you are to have dolphins and water-slides and cranberry/popcorn world.  Remember this so that on the days that are cold you have something warm to hold onto"
- me











And the only way I can describe it was that everything was ours...the morning...the snow, the little bath soaps, the warm fire in our room, all of it.  All ours.



"Oh and could we please have some snow as we sit down to eat breakfast...yes that's just the right size..perfect."



 I was amazed at the height of this glass..largest glass I have ever seen.








And this is love...



And I'm really in love when where walking around getting ready to go and Jeff's like "babe...wanna get a chai?"

And with that I have some warmth to bring home and put in my pocket.  And on Sunday mornings, when my cravings for normal settle in, I'll pull it out and be thankful.  I got to play and be with my best friend and let everything blur into the background.  We have so much to life to live.  We're gonna keep making it ours. 
Till next time...