See you next year...

I only have a few more moments left...
Tonight the world will turn and something new will begin. 
Paths that we're once crooked will start to steer straight and others will take a new turn for something uncertain or new or maybe both.  It's a mystery to begin a new year.  There's that hope that all things will be set right again and that a new chance might just be mine.
My week went down some paths that I didn't expect it too.  Eli got sick and he ended up in the ICU.  And I was lost and my world was slipping through my fingers.  My healthy little boy became limp and frail and his eyes turned dark.  And that's why I molded up next to him late that night, with wires and tubes coming from all over is little body.  I needed to smell him, to feel his chest rise and listen to his breath.  We told him all the machines where robots...he went with it and had a smile.  And I had that mommy moment that made my heart sink deep.  I promise...I promise I'll never take this little life for granted ever again.  I'll love him better, I'll say yes more, I'll not get so impatient when the day is long and I'm clear out of happy feelings. Just make him better Jesus...please...let tomorrow bring him new life and...
My world twisted and shook.  And at the same time flashing in my mind where all the mommy stories I have read about with there babies and the pain and love that broke them in half when they where sick.
But in the morning he was better and then they told us the news that they didn't think he had type 1 diabetes.  And before that I was already ready to change the world for type 1 diabetes.  Me and Eli would be the change that the world would need to be.  I had said yes, if that was going to be our story.  I had no idea what it would mean but I was gonna do it.
But thankfully, (deep breath) that was not going to have to be.  We would have worn it well...and who knows maybe there's something there that I didn't know was.  But I know that the Adams can do more then we thought.  With Jesus we rise.

New train tracks...Jeff says we should have enough to fill the whole house...


  Sunday night...


We transported Eli Monday night from Harrison to Mary Bridge Children's Hospital.  Monday night he was in the ICU till he was stable. (I don't have any photos of that, didn't have my camera, but wouldn't have taken any photos anyways, not something I really want to see again)  Then on Tuesday we got moved to the general floor.  This is one of the many great nurses who cared and loved us well.


A few weekends ago we went to Snohomish to our extended family and Whobalated...





 And we also got to visit Ang and her 3 monkeys. 



 And this Christmas we had NEW friends come.  We loved it! And we love them!!!

Ok I know that was brief and a bit to the point...but the new year is creeping in and I should be in bed because I also have a cold.  But I couldn't end this year without one last post.  Thank you 2010 for all the 365 days that you brought.  I wasn't always my best, and some days I'm not so proud of.  But then there's those days that I grew taller.  My skin got softer and I said yes to hard things.  I made the choice to be in it for the long run.
:::My heart got wider...
:::Oh and parts of me no longer had to hide anymore...
:::I learned to strut...
:::And I found out that dolphins are a state of mind not just a fish...

So I will take a bow to 2010...thank you!
See you next year!